Message to the Atom circle (and everything/one it represents)

Hello, how have u been? =)

I'm sorry for being out of touch.
I don't seem to see you much anymore.
I'm sorry for that because I know I should be making a bigger effort.

Our relationship...is not bad but its not great either.
It pains me to think I don't have much time left with you.
So much that I wish I could rewind time just to do things over again.

But time does not reverse.
I've learnt the brunt of that lesson recently.
I think the thing I hate most is that I didn't rely on you more.
I've almost by choice alienated myself.
And yet you still welcome me with open...arms...(lol electron circles?) -science fail-

Today I sat in the empty circle for a whole period.
Although no one was there, the place echoed with all the memories I've shared in that circle.
I was not lonely.
I was home.
This place will always be where the people I hold closest to my heart are.

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I love you guys.
So much.
I'm sorry that I've been the way I am.
It's embarrassing that I even made you guys worry about it, even if you are my friends.
Thank you for all the support that I don't deserve,
for giving so much to me when all I do in return is take.

And I'm sorry that despite being the oldest sister I've been the one needing babysitting.
I've failed as the oldest (and biggest) atom.

I don't have much to offer in return,
just that I will try my hardest to make the best memories in these last three months with you.
Thank you, thank you in a way that I can't even start to express in words.

I love you my babies! <3