Holidays. Rightly deserved.

Aaaah peeps. guess what?
The long awaited holidays have finally arrived and everyones so worn out and tired and stressed...
It's a wonder year 11/12 havent mutinied and just stayed home.
Good luck for those who are doing their last assessments tomorrow!
And just putting it out there, what element are we now??

While you're kicking up your feet this autumn break,
Perhaps dozing quietly infront of the TV
Catching up on all the reading that we've missed out on, or sitting infront of the computer until our bottoms lose all feeling.
(you know I'll be discreetly gaming away)
Take some time to congratulate yourself on getting through our first term of senior high school
Give yourself some credit for at least living through first of our senior assessments
And have a cry in a corner knowing there will be alot more to come.
First break, first of our last.
One and half years to go
Two more terms to hell
SOLDIER ON!!

my first ever blog post!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

As you can tell from the title this is my first ever blog post
so I just wanted to say hi to everyone
and I'm new at this so just give it a bit more time,
even though i probably wont blog much

and just by reading whats on this page just taught me that
I should probably read the blog more often *whoops*
no wonder I am always so out of the loop, sorry guys :(
and I should blog more often too...ill try but just letting you know
Im more of a telling to your face than a blogger so yeah....

also want to say i love you guys (atoms family)(although i guess this extends to most randoms who happen to be reading this blog)
and happy easter even though I will try and say this in person

:))shirleyyyy (just in case you didnt know)

:D

I <3 YOU :D

thursday

senior dance.
party out.
destress.

hope to see you there<3
time out of school together, sounds good yesno?

sorry for being away so much.
when's the last time we all kinda sat down as a group and talked?
year 11 is hectic as, with someone always having to run off and do things.
i'm sorry.
sorry for not being dedicated.
sorry for being so sour.
sorry for caring only about my problems.
sorry for never thinking of you guys.
sorry. just.. sorry.
the number of times i have apologised to you guys, the number of times i have said how much i loved you.. i do mean it, i just think i say it a lot. but, i just want you all to know.
i love you.
and you. and you. haha<3
i really will try harder. the ups and the downs. please help me through the downs and when (if) you need some one, i will be there, plans or not.
the ups will just come, i hope.
i'm so well and truly sorry for being such a bad friend and for never being around, even when you needed someone. even if someone else was there, i wasn't, and i'm sorry.
i don't know why. pms. yesno?
please give me a second chance, ne?
<3

Exerciseeeeeeee D=

Omgsh guysssssss I really need exercise =_= .
Like , I know I'm not fat ( am only getting there xD ) , but it feels really blah not doing anything ._. .

Steffu and I wanna go jogging on Monday mornings .
Chime if you like :) .

Also , Shirley and I wanna go swimming someday maybe after school ?
I dunno . Hope we end up going !
Just after school is busy nowadays =S .

... And anything else you guys wanna do ?
:)

MidKnight - AJ Rafael .

there's this place it's called home
but for me i dont know where to go
i dont know what im supposed to be
or who i am i feel so damn lost in the cold

there's this thing called the heart
well mine beats in the rhythm of the dark
i cant find what my purpose is or who i am
i feel so damn lost in this world

saving the world's not enough
maybe if i knew a little more about love
than i could finally find who i am
and then you'll agree--
there's more to me than what you see

<33

rahrahrah!

It's been a while, crocodile. Raaah.

Apologies for being busy, ne. I have like whut. 4 full lunchtimes & 1 full recess? It sucks not spending more time with you guys. Yuck. But hey, even when I do hang around, it's awesome. Just love seeing you guys smile and make fools of yourselves! ;D But yar, srsly. You're all silly people whom I love and appreciate veeeeery much. :)

Year 9..

I just remembered that time at our (Practice?) DoE walk, when the 9 Stoned Crabs were squashed into the one tent, going around in a circle saying what we expected our 'dream guys' to be like and what our ideal dates would be.
I don't exactly remember everyone's responses, but, yeah. It made me laugh.
how far we've come from our little Year 9 selves.
What with 4 crabs being in a relationship now (short and long-term).
Think back to what you said back in our tent, and think about now. Any changes? Did you get what you want?
I'm thankful for the funtimes we've had together over the course of high school and I'm thankful for all the good times to come (:
I'm thankful that we could all be brought together and see each other grow up, mentally and physically..? Haha. (:
And on that, I love you all, just the same, if not more (:
<3
(And also on that note, why did we name ourselves the 9 Stoned Crabs..? And then the Atoms Family? Hahaha. Love you guys, seriously<3)

Oblivion

And at the end of they day who do we turn to?
Take a step back and to see how far we've come
How far the horizon is to our left
And how high the clouds seem to float above our heads.
Ponder upon the depths of the oceans
To feel small besides the towering trees, buildings, hills, mountains...
To sail for a destination only seen within our beauty starved minds

Whether we want to or not, we shoulder things much bigger than ourselves
It is usually deemed as constructive, though most do not see it
Eating away, gnawing the bare bones of it's very own buttress
The waves of reality crushing against our fragile matchstick piers
While a single lightning strike could send the waters surface ablaze
And paint deep blue a bloody crimson.
But together, still, we stand yet for one more day

Now that the boat has left the shore and rocks against the waves
Now that we have lost sight of land and the horizon borders our path
We cling onto the mouldy boards of the ship much more so
Than when we first mauled and laboured over it's construction
Believing then, the journey would be exciting with the right foundations
Believing now that perhaps more than what we can give is needed
Knowing each is feeling some degree of salty spray hydrating the air

We thought, as long as hope itself is not extinguished
Then even if the boat had been torn apart by the ravaging storms
Splintered by vengeful winds or shredded by daggered reefs
We could cling on, deftly, silently, to the broken boards of our transport
Imagine our dismay when we found that storms raged not in the skies,
That oceans blue were soon drowned in a lake of tears
And the waves themselves boil, instead, in our hearts...

Please.

Stay Beautiful<3

-love-

I love. YOU
<3
thanks for always being there even when I've been a lousy person/friend.
Seriously. I don't actually know how many times I've said this, but, yeah, thanks guys.
you're amazing, really. Love you to bits. Like, oh my god there are no words to describe it.
Haha. And I know I always forget to say thanks and sorry for all those bad times.
I'm sorry if my 'friendly insults' have actually been hurtful. ):
I love you for sticking by me for so long. Seriously. Like. oh my god. LOL.
Serious love right here <3