wow okay.

so what happened here?
summer '10-'11
last summer school holidays.
let's use them well (:

hey guys

it's kind of been a while..
a long while..
how're you all?
prelims are ending soon.
time to party hard, last time before ... you know.
i feel like we're strangers again. but i don't want to be.
so please.. let's stay together, especially in the hard times.

i love you guys.
so much.

i just wanted to say that (:
<3

RENWEEEEB! :D

Happy birthday little one! Finally 16! Hahaha.
I love you lots babe, thanks for being amazing and just awesome in general.
Still remember the good times we had in Year 7, still got that purple laughing bag you gave me. Hahahaha. Love you lots and lots because you are amazing ... What a descriptive person I am (:
Hope you had a spectacularly amazingly wonderful day today! the sun shone, just for you, at recess today. So, yeah, thanks for that. Haha :P
I'm not good with expressing myself, I'm sorry. But you are definitely something words can't describe, you precious child you. I love you baby! Hope you had a good day today, surprised or not :P
<3 you lots bubby(:
~Staaaaan!

Found

It's natural to fear the unpredictable
And that occurs everyday
So what becomes important
is not to eradicate one's troubles
Because you'll never find a way
Instead look for something that counters
The ups and downs of life
Look for something that endures
The twists and turns of time
And that something I had found
Right here.

thanks guys !

for always being there for me when I needed you.
thanks for always thinking about and caring about me, even when I'm not around.
(thanks for caring for all of us, really)
thanks for being amazing, each and every one of you.
when I need advice, when I need guidance, you'll be the first I'll turn to <3
when I have something exciting to tell you, you'll be the first I'll tell it to <3
when I need a smile, you'll be the first I'll look to, the ones who'll lift my spirits when I'm down.
I love you guys.
So so so so much.
Thanks for supporting me and just being amazing all around.
I love you guys (:
<3
Let's keep making memories, yeahyeah? (:
<3

Lucky!

Words are very unreliable allies. They come in the times when they are not needed, spilling out like jelly beans, or mostly, floating from the tips of our tongues when they are needed most. Like now.

But as I sit and stare at a blank page, I began to realise that I can't really say how I feel. Emotions are as fickle as words, they flit and float, just out of reach of the grasping tendrils of reason, flickering their beams of light on us.

I guess that's my excuse for what I cannot say, but here is what I can say ( yes i'm finally getting to the point). I love you guys sooo much and you make me feel special every day <3 thank you all.

in ....

Less than 2 hours.
Roughly 1 hr and 45 minutes.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU BELLYBOOOOOO! Hahaha <3
Love you so much dearycakes and hope you had an awesome suprise party from us!
It was heaps of fun for me, and I hope it was for you too.
Wish you the bestbest of days/years to come and, yeah.. I'll see you soon loverly (:
<3<3<3
(tu)

iloveyouhubby :)

Teehee.

I did this cause I felt like it.

(While procrastinating ==;)

But I had fun :DDD

School soon.
Can't wait to see you guys!
:D

Oh, by the way, we should add Vivian, Alison, Grace, Bree, Tina on this if they have blogspot? I dunno if they do.

Love,
lolrenee

Holidays. Rightly deserved.

Aaaah peeps. guess what?
The long awaited holidays have finally arrived and everyones so worn out and tired and stressed...
It's a wonder year 11/12 havent mutinied and just stayed home.
Good luck for those who are doing their last assessments tomorrow!
And just putting it out there, what element are we now??

While you're kicking up your feet this autumn break,
Perhaps dozing quietly infront of the TV
Catching up on all the reading that we've missed out on, or sitting infront of the computer until our bottoms lose all feeling.
(you know I'll be discreetly gaming away)
Take some time to congratulate yourself on getting through our first term of senior high school
Give yourself some credit for at least living through first of our senior assessments
And have a cry in a corner knowing there will be alot more to come.
First break, first of our last.
One and half years to go
Two more terms to hell
SOLDIER ON!!

my first ever blog post!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

As you can tell from the title this is my first ever blog post
so I just wanted to say hi to everyone
and I'm new at this so just give it a bit more time,
even though i probably wont blog much

and just by reading whats on this page just taught me that
I should probably read the blog more often *whoops*
no wonder I am always so out of the loop, sorry guys :(
and I should blog more often too...ill try but just letting you know
Im more of a telling to your face than a blogger so yeah....

also want to say i love you guys (atoms family)(although i guess this extends to most randoms who happen to be reading this blog)
and happy easter even though I will try and say this in person

:))shirleyyyy (just in case you didnt know)

:D

I <3 YOU :D

thursday

senior dance.
party out.
destress.

hope to see you there<3
time out of school together, sounds good yesno?

sorry for being away so much.
when's the last time we all kinda sat down as a group and talked?
year 11 is hectic as, with someone always having to run off and do things.
i'm sorry.
sorry for not being dedicated.
sorry for being so sour.
sorry for caring only about my problems.
sorry for never thinking of you guys.
sorry. just.. sorry.
the number of times i have apologised to you guys, the number of times i have said how much i loved you.. i do mean it, i just think i say it a lot. but, i just want you all to know.
i love you.
and you. and you. haha<3
i really will try harder. the ups and the downs. please help me through the downs and when (if) you need some one, i will be there, plans or not.
the ups will just come, i hope.
i'm so well and truly sorry for being such a bad friend and for never being around, even when you needed someone. even if someone else was there, i wasn't, and i'm sorry.
i don't know why. pms. yesno?
please give me a second chance, ne?
<3

Exerciseeeeeeee D=

Omgsh guysssssss I really need exercise =_= .
Like , I know I'm not fat ( am only getting there xD ) , but it feels really blah not doing anything ._. .

Steffu and I wanna go jogging on Monday mornings .
Chime if you like :) .

Also , Shirley and I wanna go swimming someday maybe after school ?
I dunno . Hope we end up going !
Just after school is busy nowadays =S .

... And anything else you guys wanna do ?
:)

MidKnight - AJ Rafael .

there's this place it's called home
but for me i dont know where to go
i dont know what im supposed to be
or who i am i feel so damn lost in the cold

there's this thing called the heart
well mine beats in the rhythm of the dark
i cant find what my purpose is or who i am
i feel so damn lost in this world

saving the world's not enough
maybe if i knew a little more about love
than i could finally find who i am
and then you'll agree--
there's more to me than what you see

<33

rahrahrah!

It's been a while, crocodile. Raaah.

Apologies for being busy, ne. I have like whut. 4 full lunchtimes & 1 full recess? It sucks not spending more time with you guys. Yuck. But hey, even when I do hang around, it's awesome. Just love seeing you guys smile and make fools of yourselves! ;D But yar, srsly. You're all silly people whom I love and appreciate veeeeery much. :)

Year 9..

I just remembered that time at our (Practice?) DoE walk, when the 9 Stoned Crabs were squashed into the one tent, going around in a circle saying what we expected our 'dream guys' to be like and what our ideal dates would be.
I don't exactly remember everyone's responses, but, yeah. It made me laugh.
how far we've come from our little Year 9 selves.
What with 4 crabs being in a relationship now (short and long-term).
Think back to what you said back in our tent, and think about now. Any changes? Did you get what you want?
I'm thankful for the funtimes we've had together over the course of high school and I'm thankful for all the good times to come (:
I'm thankful that we could all be brought together and see each other grow up, mentally and physically..? Haha. (:
And on that, I love you all, just the same, if not more (:
<3
(And also on that note, why did we name ourselves the 9 Stoned Crabs..? And then the Atoms Family? Hahaha. Love you guys, seriously<3)

Oblivion

And at the end of they day who do we turn to?
Take a step back and to see how far we've come
How far the horizon is to our left
And how high the clouds seem to float above our heads.
Ponder upon the depths of the oceans
To feel small besides the towering trees, buildings, hills, mountains...
To sail for a destination only seen within our beauty starved minds

Whether we want to or not, we shoulder things much bigger than ourselves
It is usually deemed as constructive, though most do not see it
Eating away, gnawing the bare bones of it's very own buttress
The waves of reality crushing against our fragile matchstick piers
While a single lightning strike could send the waters surface ablaze
And paint deep blue a bloody crimson.
But together, still, we stand yet for one more day

Now that the boat has left the shore and rocks against the waves
Now that we have lost sight of land and the horizon borders our path
We cling onto the mouldy boards of the ship much more so
Than when we first mauled and laboured over it's construction
Believing then, the journey would be exciting with the right foundations
Believing now that perhaps more than what we can give is needed
Knowing each is feeling some degree of salty spray hydrating the air

We thought, as long as hope itself is not extinguished
Then even if the boat had been torn apart by the ravaging storms
Splintered by vengeful winds or shredded by daggered reefs
We could cling on, deftly, silently, to the broken boards of our transport
Imagine our dismay when we found that storms raged not in the skies,
That oceans blue were soon drowned in a lake of tears
And the waves themselves boil, instead, in our hearts...

Please.

Stay Beautiful<3

-love-

I love. YOU
<3
thanks for always being there even when I've been a lousy person/friend.
Seriously. I don't actually know how many times I've said this, but, yeah, thanks guys.
you're amazing, really. Love you to bits. Like, oh my god there are no words to describe it.
Haha. And I know I always forget to say thanks and sorry for all those bad times.
I'm sorry if my 'friendly insults' have actually been hurtful. ):
I love you for sticking by me for so long. Seriously. Like. oh my god. LOL.
Serious love right here <3

Blessed ;

I hope this blog doesn't die .

People should blog more here ! :)

I'd just like to say thankyou for letting me be a part of your lives k33 .

happy Single Awareness Day ( S.A.D. ) :)
<33

Love Heart

               ...Friends;

A group of people one spends time with...
         ...Someone who can be trusted with secrets.
                       People who care, who laugh, who cry...
                                     For us, with us, because of us. Because

We need them just as much as they need us.

      What is friendship?                 For you and me?
   But what does it mean...         for  each person in this?  
 It is not just any relationship, there are responsibilities too 
We study together. we work well when we can share ideas
    We live togther. at school. when we're simply hanging.
      We are happy and sad together.We're different too
            Mentally, Emotionally, Physically, Spiritually
                But one thing we all have in common
                     We all ultimately share a love
                            A strong bond called
                                   Friendship
                                        <3


Happy Valentines Day Guys!

love.

Thanks a bunch guys. I love you all, like, so much.
Without you, I seriously don't know what I'd do.
Just as long as you're all there beside me, I feel like I can do anything.
I thank you all for giving me the strength to shine.
I seriously love you all. So much.
<3

return of the vanished~

<3

The Odd Enlightenment of Television.

A little something something that I'm sure we all want to tell Renee. I got this idea after reading her sister's story she posted up and I thought we could go for a little story ourselves, right? I heard this story a couple of hours ago on television is a TV show and I thought it was worthwhile telling you guys.

Well, all stories have to start a little like this: Once upon a time...

there was a little boy and he was walking through the forest with his mum when they came across a big rock. The little boy asked his mum, "Do you think I can move that big rock, Mummy?" And she replied, "If you try your hardest, I know you can." His mum watched him as he tried his hardest to lift the rock, but the rock didn't move. But his mum continued to watch him and smile at him with unconditional love.

I guess you thinking this is the reassuring ending, but there's more and even better ending than that...

She then walked up to him and grabbed hold of the rock. It wasn't light, but together, they lifted up the rock and his mother said to him, "Sweetie, sometimes trying you hardest means asking for help."

That pretty much sums up what I want to say. Not just to See, but to everyone.

To Renee: Like you said, we're the ones you can trust and look to for help if you ever need it. I know you're trying your hardest for the people around you and just know that we're around and we can help you ease the pressure, even if it's just for one moment of your day. I know you don't want to burden us with your problems and that kind of thing, but we're you mates and we are always willing to lift a little of that rock for you.

hi guys.

i want to say thankyou...
you're all always there for me when i need you guys.
i know i've started being weird since the end of last term.
well...sorta starting from the whole term 4.
sorry if i've been neglecting you guys.
i love you guys
<3
thanks for still being my friend.

sorry for always borrowing money...
i know i still owe people money =/
i owe like everyone money.
lol...

let chu guys in on a secret lol
well some of you might already know
but yeah
my family isn't going so well lately.
but my dad's back for a while.
a month.
but hes going back for a year again lol

our family is kinda struggling financially...
lol
and the trust between everyone is kind of dying.
i'm not really meant to tell anyone lol
but i feel that i can trust you guys?
you guys are people i can always count on yeah?
but yeah...
i don't know.
sometimes i just feel like running out of the house and escaping everything for a while
and since im the older daughter
there's kind of pressure on me trying to keep everything together.
the relationship between my parents and all lol...
i don't know. sigh.

but anyways
point of this blog post was
thanks. really, thanks guys.
i love you .
<3

#__sxcroflcake .