Ah~ First post in the team blog. Thanks you setting this up guys. It'll be fun : )
Anywhose, on to my point. For the past few days, I've had this ill-at-ease feeling. Like this "knowing" that something bad is going to happen. Has anyone else had that? It can't just be me, can it? I'm not usually a negative or bleak person so it feels weird because I get this panicky anxiety when things aren't exactly right. For example, last night before I slept, I really felt it. I started taking notice to the meticulous things I did before I slept, usually I just do them and sleep. I had never before so I started feeling this kind of "pressure" on myself. I didn't relax until I had set up everything and was in bed snuggled up in my sheets. I also got it today at school...I don't remember when, but it felt like something was smothering me (like...restricting me so I couldn't do things that I enjoyed; sorta when you have an artistic moment, but no one will let you express yourself).
It could be the excitement of the holidays and exam stress setting in on my subconscious at the same time so I feel this weight on me that I've never felt before. So it'll either just take some time to get used to or pass over in a month. Possibly I'm developing a nervous disorder, which sure as hell is possible.
Today was a nice day though, wasn't it. I could have enjoyed it more, but overall I did try to make the best of what I could which is what counts. Organising luncheon has already got me worried about next year, though I am looking forward to year 11.
To finish on a positive note. Thanks for the good times you guys give, even during the bad times. You guys help me strive for a feeling of contentment everyday. Though, I know you guys would encourage me to strive high and tell me I'll get there, one day. That makes me ease up; even if its a little bit. You guys are great, never forget that. Loving you guys truly, madly, deeply.
Anywhose, on to my point. For the past few days, I've had this ill-at-ease feeling. Like this "knowing" that something bad is going to happen. Has anyone else had that? It can't just be me, can it? I'm not usually a negative or bleak person so it feels weird because I get this panicky anxiety when things aren't exactly right. For example, last night before I slept, I really felt it. I started taking notice to the meticulous things I did before I slept, usually I just do them and sleep. I had never before so I started feeling this kind of "pressure" on myself. I didn't relax until I had set up everything and was in bed snuggled up in my sheets. I also got it today at school...I don't remember when, but it felt like something was smothering me (like...restricting me so I couldn't do things that I enjoyed; sorta when you have an artistic moment, but no one will let you express yourself).
It could be the excitement of the holidays and exam stress setting in on my subconscious at the same time so I feel this weight on me that I've never felt before. So it'll either just take some time to get used to or pass over in a month. Possibly I'm developing a nervous disorder, which sure as hell is possible.
Today was a nice day though, wasn't it. I could have enjoyed it more, but overall I did try to make the best of what I could which is what counts. Organising luncheon has already got me worried about next year, though I am looking forward to year 11.
To finish on a positive note. Thanks for the good times you guys give, even during the bad times. You guys help me strive for a feeling of contentment everyday. Though, I know you guys would encourage me to strive high and tell me I'll get there, one day. That makes me ease up; even if its a little bit. You guys are great, never forget that. Loving you guys truly, madly, deeply.
C-man : D
